I got up this morning with a lot on my mind. I was having a difficult time surrendering it to the Will of the Supreme. This is where I always say "We say we have Faith- but to 'have faith' and 'apply it' to everyday situations are very different". My human ego wants to manage and manipulate, even thought I know that the Divine plan is a better plan than I could have ever come up with.
I prayed.  I resolved myself, surrendered my need to control  and was at peace with allowing the Divine to give me what I needed today...

I turned on the television and there was a televangelist on. I know a message when I see it and lord knows that I would surely discount the message because of the messenger in the past- so it HAD to be a televangelist that I actually like...lol

I can hear my guides on the other side..."Who would be the best human messenger  in this moment to confirm the message for Marianne???"
It was Joyce Meyers...I like her, she reminds me of myself.....

She was talking about the accountability of surrender, to pick up the 'cross' (accept the challenge) and get moving. The rest is not up to you, surrender to the Will of God. Be the vessel. 
Our job is to clean the vessel and get it ready for what God wants in our lives...

Yes.
Yes
Yes
Thank you Joyce,
Thank you Universe-
I'm listening,  I really am....lol

Seperation- leaving the Fourth world

When we used to live in villages, there was a need for interdependency for survival.

Now we live in communities and cities that are so vast- that our interdependence is almost unnoticed. We've gone from tribal counsels of wise elders to public officials. The bigger these communities become- the more separate the people become from the responsibility to the whole.
A breach has been created between the people and the leaders- where corruption has infiltrated and the people  cannot  be heard in order to effect change.

The people became distracted by the addiction of  their want, their need, and don't see themselves as a part of the greater whole. Greed, isolation and material  wealth has overshadowed the need for Connectedness to each other and the responsibility of each  individual to make the community thrive.

There is a separateness between those with wealth and education, and those in poverty and ignorance..
This is the Fourth world of separation.

It is coming to an end.
So what must happen to destroy this illusion in order for the Fifth world of Peace to arrive?
This is the pivotal question.
It is already being felt. it has already begun.

The Fifth world of Peace rejoins the people with the Earth- with the Source of all there is- with each other..no longer will we be separate- but as with all change and transition- it requires a 'death'. Not necessarily in the Apocalyptic sense- but the longer we try to keep things the way they are as they struggle to die- that is where the pain and angst will be felt. The things that are dying are the ways of thinking and the lie we have been told.
the lie that we financed and paid for so dearly. We have to work 2 jobs and put our children in the care of strangers so we can make enough to pay for it all...

Enter The Fifth World of Peace.....

We are being called by an inner knowing to conncet to the Divine. The Spiritual awakening has begun, and many are in search for the meaning of Life- their Purpose and their connection to the Divine- in whatever form they choose.,
We are disinchanted with matierial  acquirements and come to honor what we have that is useful and meaningful. No more hoarding.
We long for Peace, and the simplicity of life.
We are searching for others like ourselves, who want to create a better world for our children, where hate and greed and ignorance are a thing of the past.
We are seeking to create community- where we can serve and be understood and accepted; Where each of us is responsible to ourselves and to each other.
Where Love, Compassion and Joy overcome hate, judgment and misery.
We are being called to heal our Mother- the Earth- life bringer- sustainer of us all.

As the pinnace year of 2012 approaches- we will see that keeping the illusion of what our society has become will be a waste of time. The gluttony and hedonism will die- and those who serve that master in their addiction will be sadly awakened.

We are learning- slowly- that less is more and we will learn to be less dependent on the illusion of wealth- and become rich in a more profound way. Not indebted to create a feeling of wealth..an illusion of having....But  understanding that we are never without. That everything we need is provided- through effort, accountability and faith. That if I have and another does not- we have failed.

Redefining wealth as those who love us and those we love- including our neighbors and those we meet on the street. Time- not to fill with addiction, diversion and worry- but peace of mind to enjoy the simplicity of our lives and those in it.

What will you create as the world changes?

Find your Tribe

My Gratitude prayer

Wakan Tanka- Creator of all there is-
Thank you for believing in me and giving me the strength and courage to believe in myself.

I am but a  human woman. I am flawed,  but trying hard to embrace the way of Spirit- to rise above the human weaknesses that separate me- Ego, Fear, Blame, judgment, Hate

I know now that I am not separate from You- Your love is obvious when I choose to let go and get out of the way. When I allow you to give me what I need.
Removing my expectations has given me Peace that I have never known.

 I am grateful to the Guides and Ancestors on the Blue Road, who bridge the gap between this world and the next. Without their loving patience and guidance I would not have had the courage and knowing to lead in my life.

I am grateful to my human family. So many Teachers; loving, caring, compassionate people who I  am blessed to have join me on this journey. Those who are looking for  peace, love, acceptance and a better way to live- in spite of the world as it is.

I have hope for a better future as I awaken to the need for change in our world.
It begins with me- and I can see the ripple that is being created as I watch your teachings through the Smoking Mirror.

We are all connected.

I am also grateful for all my brothers and sisters in the animal tribe; The unconditional sacrifices they make because of our human ignorance as they try to protect our mother the Earth, in spite of us.
Still giving us messages of change and hope as they try to coexist in their shrinking world with us.

I am grateful to all of the other tribes- the standing people, the things that creep and swim, and our medicine people the plants who bring me many different perceptions and healing.

I seek to change no one but myself.
In my humanness ,separateness and ignorance I have harmed many. I cannot make amends to them all, but seek to Walk in Beauty the rest of my days.

I will clear my path of all the blocks to the Journey you ave prepared for me, so I may see you, in all of your forms,  walking beside me as I go forward on the Good Red Road.
Aho.

Marianne Goldweber

Spring Cleaning- Making room for NEW

We want more...right? Picture being a prayer answerer on the other side and wanting to give us more, but they see that our hearts, minds and homes and schedules are full- so full that there is no room for all the things we are asking for...what is a spirit to do?
They answered our prayer last week and we did not even say thank you.

Shift your perception.

Let's ask ourselves- if I was to answer my prayer for more, whether that is new experiences, peace, love  or financial abundance- how am I managing what I've already been given- and- is there room for that which I ask?
Chances are the answer is we have not.

Are we honoring what we have?
Are we grateful?
Are we seeing the abundance we have been given that we are treating with disrespect?
Why do we deserve more?
In our search for what we don't have- how do we treat the things and people we do have?

In doing this inventory- we may find that we have had it all along.



Spring is a time of creation- of creating what we want to bloom and grow...but first we must clear away the debris of the fall, and cultivte the soil in order to prepare the fertile ground for the seed....
In the garden of our lives- are we ready for the time of planting?

Thought for the day;

I am grateful for what I am and have.

My thanksgiving is perpetual...
O how I laugh when I think of my vague indefinite riches.
No run on my bank can drain it
for my wealth is not possession but enjoyment.

Henry David Thoreau

Peace

Peace
I looked around for this thing called peace
I looked and looked everywhere for it.
and all I found was chaos.

I became angry that no one would tell me where I could find it.
until an amazing thing happened.
I heard the Voice..
it said 'sit down'

I did what I was told.
I sat down..
it felt strange to be still.
I observed that nothing around me stopped moving

I watched as everyone and everything swirled and twirled in the chaos.

I then became aware of my separateness..I was alone......
which was uncomfortable yet nice at the same time...
no one seemed to notice me just sitting.

I began to examine my surroundings.
taking a inventory of where I was and what I thought
something I never had the time to do before I sat.

I began to hear the Voice clearer as it answered my questions and gave me insight...
I came to trust the Voice because it  was kind, patient and loving.
I was liking this new feeling
and realized that I found what I was looking for,
the surprise was; it was here all along.

And as I sat,  people would notice.
They would come over and ask me 'Do you know where I can find Peace?'
I said 'Come and sit down with me awhile.......'

Potential

When I was a child my parents would go to parent teacher conferences. They would come home and say- the teacher loves you but  you aren't working uo to your potential... 

I used to hate that.

My potential?- What did that mean?

I was not an over achiever by any stretch of the imagination- and frankly no one really  put any pressure on me to do better. I was never really challenged.
As an adult  I felt that I was working hard, but when my mediocre efforts were not rewarded in the way I thought they should be,  I could not understand why.
I had a huge sense of entitlement and was disappointed  a lot. 

At times I was even rather indignant.

 My spiritual awakening and personal accountability dealt me many very difficult observations about myself that were painful to acknowledge.

Our society has created a generation of entitlement, where there is  little effort. It takes work  and accountability to create the success that most of us want. 

I passed up, and was overlooked for many opportunities because of the illusion of  my self importance. Seeing that  much success or failures have been in direct result with the effort and consistency to which I applied myself was a changing day. 

You get what you give.

So, the phrase 'not working up to my potential' translates into what the Universe knows I am capable of , physically, spiritually and emotionally; if I should choose to accept the opportunities presented to me and exert effort.  

I didn't understand that if I took a step forward in the right direction, the Universe takes two and I get propelled forward much faster. That my forward movement is matched with that from my 'helpers' on the other side. That I'm not doing it alone.

Dare to live up to your potential- I know you can do it, the question is do you?.

Marianne Goldweber

Thought for the day;

To awaken each morning with a smile brightening my face; 

to greet the day with reverence for the opportunities it contains; 

to approach my work with a clean mind; 

to hold ever before me, even in the doing of little things, the ultimate purpose toward which I am working; 

to meet men and women with laughter on my lips and love in my heart; 

to be gentle, kind, and courteous through all the hours; 

to approach the night with weariness that ever woos sleep and the joy that comes from work well done - 

this is how I desire to waste wisely my days.

Thomas Dekker

Discovering our purpose- The Shaman's Death

Many cultures have rituals that are part of an initiation into the work of a Medicine person. These ritual teachings not only involve spiritual learning but a physical surrender with a  brush with death as well.. These rituals are necessary in order for the Medicine person to work with people who are in neeed of healing- whether that healing is physical  emotional or spiritual. the Medicine person is called to face  the darkness that is keeping them in suffering.

We are all called, at some point in our life, to have a ritualistic death- but many of us are afraid to let go of what is familiar  and truly have the Faith required to let go and surrender  in order to uncover our purpose.

We cannot be free to 'become' if we don't allow  the human conditioning, ego and human truths to 'die' and define our Faith- what we believe guides us in this journey- and then trust in it.

It is an ultimate act of Faith; when we are willing to surrender ourselves.it is in that moment of 'death' that we put our life in the hands of the Divine force that goes by many names; Great Mystery- the Source - God- Creator.

In order to emerge- one must surrender completely to the darkness and do battle with the dark forces-such as in the 'Shaman's Death'.

In order to help others battle the darkness- it takes one who has been there to do battle with that which he himself  has come face to face with.

How can we have the courage to face another's demons objectively without facing our own?

Those who emerge  from  this ritual,  walk both the red road and the blue road of spirit.

Surrendering  and facing the darkness - especially the darkness within us is the ultimate act of Faith but necessary if we are to do the work we are being called to do to heal our world and her people.