Through my Personal and Spiritual awakening, I had a little shadow. He is my son.
It's interesting how becoming a parent changes your awareness. It makes you more keenly aware of what a damaged place this world is. I went from wanting to protecting my child- to wanting to change the world…
A world where violence-war- hatred-apathy-anger-chaos-cruelty-slander-gossip-revenge-abuse-neglect- runs rampant.
We are so assaulted by this- that we have become numb to the horror- we have actually developed a TOLERANCE to this dysfunction.
I was bullied as a child, and lack of self esteem and insecurity kept me from taking my place as a leader in my life.I was a victim.
True Leadership partners with accountability- and that for me being accountable was a lot of work- however, I was very critical as to why NO ONE was doing anything about it. Little did I know that I was the someone who would become powerful enough to lead.
Lots of things inspired me but none as much as the movie Gandhi. I spent the bulk of my life avoiding rules-criticizing the establishment. Gandhi was an attorney- he knew the rules and used them against the establishment- the intruders in his country-with peaceful, lawful disobedience….He was my kind of guy.
I realized someone has to go first- and that someone was me….
My son- my little Gandhi- has watched me rise- to stand in the conviction of my truth. He has watched me be criticized and belittled for my beliefs and my social consciousness. He has seen firsthand the power of hate and fear. But as I told him a leader;a Spiritual warrior must continue to rise.
I told him that a leader has a bulls-eye on their butt.
A Leader is a target- so you have to have the courage to stand up- not just for ourselves- but for those who cannot stand and fight- the silent majority.
Bullying is rampant in his school. No one was willing to address such a large problem.
The inmates were running the asylum.
On a daily basis he was having a run in with a group of boys one especially that he referred to as- 'a damaged human being'. He applied all the 'strategies' that the school provided- but no one was supporting his efforts.
They were incredibly apathetic.
One day he had enough; he got jumped after school and was forced to defend himself. He said 'Mom, it was like dark chocolate- sweet and bitter at the same time'. I told him that overpowering another person can be addictive, this why violence only creates more violence. He and the boy and the principal met. He told the other boy “I will not allow you to spew your hate and unhappiness on me anymore”.. and with the resolve of a Leader- he communicated to the administration.
He and I met with the entire teaching staff. He did not relent, and it took awhile for them to take us seriously. Since then they have provided this other boy with support and the help that he needs.
Gandhi would be proud, he followed the chain of command- we applied positive pressure for accountability to the powers at large - we used the student handbook's rules and state laws to our advantage.
There is a new campaign against hate and bullying at his school.
We are also starting a random acts of kindness campaign.
Jarred said "Being a leader and having to go first is hard, but staying down and suffering is harder".
That's my boy. :)
Namaste,
Marianne
Friday, November 9, 2007
My Little Gandhi
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Awakening- Messages and Messengers
For all of us- the process of awakening is just a shift in perception-
Our human perception is about the self...and the spiritual perception is outside us....
It took me a very long time to go from the human- the victim of things happening to me...to the perception that I am creating what happens to me....to how can I create what I want the world to be.....
The common denominator is me- and the thing that changed was my perception.....
Through this entire process there are backward and forward moments- a constant ebb and flow of change...three steps forward- two steps back...
I was just asleep....and the awakening is bringing the dream- the vision- into the physical world..
We are all connected-my story is your story.
We may be seperated in different bodies, or houses or countries- but we are conncted by spirit..our differences get smaller and smaller until our awakening shows us that no one, from the highest to the lowest are the same- they are all me.... and all are looking to the other for hope, love, understanding, help, peace, joy,acceptance...
The human cannot see themselves in the beggar- the abused- the ugly-the other....the spirit sees that if one is suffering- we are all suffering- it accepts and loves without condition- that the thief needs love and compassion, just as much as the good and just..
You and I are the same- your joys are my joys- your suffering is my suffering- your hopes and dreams are mine....
Seperateness creates division and disharmony...it creates apathy and lack of understanding.
Connectedness of enlightenment creates unification, understanding, and harmony.
You who have come here to this village are awakening- you are not here accidentally- there is purpose to what you are reading- understanding and being a part of...the question for each of you is why?
Why? Because you are being called-
Called to learn- and then to teach- to heal and heal others, to accept help and to be of service...
The awakening has begun.........now what?....
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
INVISIBILITY- AN ILLUSIONARY TALE
Marianne If 20 years ago- anyone would have told me that I would be doing what I do - a Minister- Psychic-and the owner of 2 businesses- I would have told them they were crazy…
I saw myself on an old video from 1989 recently-I was watching it with my sister/friend/guru- Sue- and I almost didn't recognize myself..
Not just physically- but also in the way I was acting.
We talked about that- Sue was loving enough to share that she saw how uncomfortable I was with myself then, and it showed.
I can admit now that I was not being authentic- and it was incredibly obvious..
We feel invisible- (a term I received from my friend Megan); Like who we are- what we do- and the existence we lead has no bearing on anyone else..that no one notices…..
That is a lie…
A lie we tell ourselves and others when we; try to please- or not speak our truth- or speak up- or set boundaries- or live an un lived existence…or tolerate being treated badly.
I see myself in pictures or on film now- and I am peaceful- happy- and authentic… and in the mirror of that- I hope to inspire others to do the same…..
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Here is the thought for the day-
Authentic is letting go of the things in your life that are false, that really don't mean anything.
Society in general is under such a hypnotic overlay that they forget about what's really important.
They get very unauthentic, very distracted, doing everything to try to - how to say - just get by.
Doing everything to just have enough.
Doing everything to either please others or to keep others from getting upset with them - and that is not authentic.
Adamus St. Germain Source: crimsoncircle.com Namaste,
Marianne Goldweber
Access: PublicWednesday, September 19, 2007
It's very easy to be critical of things- like our jobs, our spouse,our society, our leaders etc.
But...maybe we haven't really been part of the solution- we haven't been invested in being the solution..
Like Dr Phil says "If your not part of the solution- you're part of the problem."
I have been observing my neighborhood lately..so many houses for sale that have been on the market for a very long time. I know that this isn't just in my neck-of-the-woods..It's happening everywhere...
But what I have noticed is that it's almost like people are being forced to stay put....Why is that?
Well- maybe it's the Universes' way of getting us to get invested where we live. Some of my neighbors did major renovation to sell their house come to find that now it is really nice, and want to stay...and for others- it forced them to reach out and solve conflicts with their neighbors- since they're stuck with them....lol
How can we apply this to a job that we aren't in love with anymore-jobs are scarce now. How can we get re-invested- make peace with the boss-get along with our co-workers? Start talking positively about the company we work for? Helping it to be a success instead of sabotaging it with negative comments and behavior...
How do we criticize others in our life for not living up to our expectation- instead of seeing how we could be the source of conflict, disappointment and lack of appreciation...
For what we send out is returned- the law of energy- the universal law of abundance...
Our society is in need of Peace, Love and Compassion activists- regardless of who is leading- or who is not doing the right thing- the question we have to ask ourselves is - What am I doing?
That my friends, is the difference...So what are you going to do about it?
Are you part of the problem- or part of the solution?
Here is the thought for the day
Tell me and I forget;
Show me and I remember;
Involve me and I understand.
Marianne Goldweber
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
My Son
Marianne My son is 11 now- and this summer marked a number of 'firsts' for him.
He took his first trip with his dad on the Harley- all the way to Tennessee- He now appreciates the 'road stories' that his Dad and I recount frequently!
He went to his first Biker funeral- which is more like a reunion- and he got to put a face with all the names and stories that he's heard over the years. He did it with grace and didn't let on….
And he mourned along side us and the rebels on their steel horses; the loss of a friend that he personally spent many afternoons with- as he battled Cancer.
My son shared memories of his days with Frank- a little man with a story to share.. old stories mixed with new…..and the big guys listened he was one of them…
I waited a long time to be a Mom-
Finally when I was 36 my son to decide to come to this existence.
When he was born- he looked like a little version of Gandhi- ancient looking, bald and smiling with that toothless little grin..
I am in love with him- the way he thinks- so different from my own (thank the heavens) and the inherent wisdom that he shares. His joy in simplicity and his compassion are many times a lesson for me.
The other day- I had a very strange experience….
He was coming back from a ride with his Dad and they pulled up on the bike…
He got off- took off his helmet, put his sunglasses up on his head. Then he turned to look at me in his jeans and leather jacket…
…and for an instant- I saw him as a grown man- it took my breath away- and as fast as it happened it was over…..
I choked back tears as he came smiling up to me and said…
Mom are you okay?……..
I'm fine son…just fine…
Here is the thought for the day
We worry about what a child will be tomorrow, yet we forget that he is someone today.
Stacia Tauscher
Namaste,
Marianne Goldweber
Friday, August 24, 2007
1991 Buick- Gift from the Universe-deliverer of messages cont'd
Marianne This car thing just get's better and better………
Ok, my 1991 Buick is a gift from the Universe, it gets stolen and returned in the same night….. and then 3 days later……..
I'm at the grocery store, I get in my car- and starting it now requires a screwdriver that I keep in my purse- I have to open the drivers door to see the little thingy that I have to push to get it started…
so while I'm applying my new skill- a man is watching me since I am preventing him from getting in his car that is parked next to mine….. I assured him that it is my car and briefly told him about it being stolen and where they found it a couple of hours later…..
He was very tall and extremely thin..he had a very sad but kind face, and he said to take my time- he was waiting for his elderly mom to shop….
I asked him his name….I told him mine…(his was printed on his work shirt)
He said what day did this happen- I told him Friday…..
He looked very strange and told me the most fascinating story…… He said he works in that same area where they found my car-at a industrial plant and they all went out at lunch to cash their checks and to get lunch.
On the way back he stopped at the gas station where they found my car- and bought cigarettes when a man came up to him in the parking lot and asked for a smoke…
He said “I'm really skinny and I couldn't reach into my pocket without my pants falling down- (he was in a work uniform with his name on the front..and raised his shirt to show me that he had his pants bunched up and secured with a rubber band to hold them up)..so I needed both of my hands to get my cigarettes out of my pocket” …another man approached and pulled a gun out -took his cigarettes and his paycheck that he just cashed…..
His eyes were misty and he said why do people do such things……
I said people in need do desperate things that always impact others…but there is a plan and a purpose..we just don't always get to know why……
By that time, I started the car and rolled down the window.. I said ***** don't lose faith in mankind- he smiled a very sad smile…
I thought in a very quick moment about how blessed I have been over the course of the last few days- how peace and love have saved me from the pain of being a victim….how other spiritual beings just rose to the occasion and were of service to me when I was in need……
We were side by side and all I had on me was a 20.00 bill- I handed it to him through our adjacent windows and said I know this doesn't make up for it but maybe it will help renew your faith….he started to cry.
He smiled and said thank you….just as his little gray haired mom came with her cart…..
I put my screw driver back in my purse and drove away…
I love this car………..
Here is the thought for the day
I may speak in tongues of men or of angels, but if I am without love, I am a sounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
I may have the gift of prophecy, and know every hidden truth; I may have faith strong enough to move mountains; but if I have no love, I am nothing.
I may dole out all I possess, or even give my body to be burnt, but if I have no love, I am none the better.
Love is patient; love is kind and envies no one.
Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;
never selfish, not quick to take offense.
Love keeps no score of wrongs; does not gloat over other men's sins,
but delights in the truth.
There is nothing love cannot face;
there is no limit to its faith, its hope, and its endurance.
The Bible, 1st Book Of Corinthians
Peace and Love,
Marianne Goldweber