If the world was blind for a time.....

If the world was blind for a time,
Would our blindness remove the judgment
by which we assess each other?

Would it level the field?
or would beauty then be judged
by the sound of our voice
or the feel of our skin,
or the smell of our essence?

Would we allow our other senses to
feel another person's energy,
or listen harder to their truth?

Would our blindness make us afraid?
Or would we learn to develop trust?


If the world was blind for a time,
would we finally be able to see
the light and darkness
within ourselves?

Would we develop faith in the unseen-
something greater than us,
and our own inner knowing?


Would we learn to appreciate
the simplicity of life?

Would we learn to help each other?

Would we love our neighbor?

Would we  learn to feel with our hands and hearts?


Oh, if only the world was blind for a time......

Marianne Goldweber

Rules of the road- Memoirs of a biker chick..

During the course of my life I have not always done things in the conventional way. 
As a teenager- I yearned for freedom..away from the rules. I was a dreamer, preferring to see things my way, and felt that my creative thinking  and my freedom was being suppressed. I was told over and over that I was different, and I refused to conform.
In the late 70's, I was introduced to the biker world. I thought, I found my people, they were my tribe. They were mysterious,free, powerful, intimidating, cool- oh and irreverent.

Over those  20 or so years  I gained much wisdom that I use every day..

I like to call them 'The rules of the road...'


People all want to be seen, heard, appreciated and hugged..even A 6'9" guy who's first name started with Crazy....

The battles we fight- inside or out leave scars that we want to show and tell with others.

If you start a fight- don't expect people to jump in and save your ass.

Everybody secretly wants to be you- rebel, wear leather, quit their job, buy a harley and hit the road.

A thick skin, like leather, protects you from stuff that comes at you at 70 mph..or when you fall down.

Learn to laugh at yourself- we all do stupid shit that people will continue to remind you about..
You may even get a nickname because of it.

Just because you buy a leather, a motorcycle and microphone helmets doesn't make you a biker- it makes you a wannabe- be yourself.

F.T.W.- if you have to ask you wouldn't understand.

There is no destination- just a series of experiences on a one way trip.

'Live to Ride' is more than a slogan.

What you see and hear you keep to yourself.

Keep yourself in check.

You are known by the company you keep.

Friendly does not mean friend.

There is power in numbers.

We all have to watch out for each other- if they are on the road with you,  you stick with them, you don't bail when they break down.

Your recklessness affects others and if it does- they are going to be pissed.

Stand for what you believe, and protect the innocent.

So, on the road of life, we are all on our way to somewhere- don't forget to stop and have a cold one, everyone has a story especially the old timers-take time to listen,  take the road less traveled, don't be afraid to get lost, worry about it when and if it happens, enjoy the scenery, put your arms out and pretend to fly, wave at strangers and most importantly.... enjoy the wind.

Dreaming the dream.......

Life is but a dream....
We spend our lives on the 'To Do' and there doesn't seem to be time for ‘Creating the dream’. We feel  like slaves to the life that  is thrust upon us.

The life you have is the one that you are allowing yourself to have.              

If that's so- we can create whatever experience we want.

It can be changed at any moment.
-When you decide you want more.
-When you become intolerant of suffering.
-When you get accountable to your own life.

One day- I had a Dream. In the dream, I envisioned A Village, a place of peace, community and teaching-
an oasis for a changing and lost world.

At the time, there was no foreseeable way that was going to happen;

 I had a 2 year old- my marriage was a mess- I'd lost a 20 year career and I had lost my identity.
I owned a small retail store that I had to depend on for my very existence.
I thought there is no freaking' way. This ‘Dream’ was really a vision and part of my Spiritual Awakening.

I bought a three ring binder- I filled it with ideas for the 'Dream'. I wrote powerful words on the cover with a silver marker;. Manifestation- Inspirations- Insights- Notions- Plans- Ideas- Visions- Dreams- and drew suns stars and moons all over it.

What would it look like? What would I do there? Who would come?

Ok, what would I need to get it up and running?
1. A location..(I had visited a wonderful B+B once- I fell in love with it.)
I used it as my  backdrop.

2. What were the blocks to getting it?
I made a list.. it started to look do-able!

With help from the Universe- things slowly began to change....I began to change..
I got divorced (not by my choosing at the time) I let go of the store that was a source of exhaustion and huge financial commitment. I spent the next year healing my wounded life, mourning, decompressing, sorting, purging, , praying  and dreaming. I was blessed to have the company of my friend and sister Jennifer during that amazing, wonderful, horrible time.

At the end of that year, I had a clearer understanding of the Dream. I had a clearer understanding of what I needed to create it. I got accountable, gained confidence, accepted myself unconditionally, evolved and planned. With every bag of garbage I purged and every relationship I evaluated,  I cleared the path of everything that was in the way of the Dream. My ways of thinking- worry- control and fear and replaced them with hope- accountability- faith and surrender.

During those years, my son and I visited our beloved  B+B over 30 times. He used to call it ‘Our House’;it was for sale and vacant. In  October 2009, I made the call and it was available and do-able. On the Full Moon- October 31, 2009 A Village became a reality.

The day we got the keys- I stood in the living room with my now 15 year old son-
He said "We did it Mom- can you believe it?...It's our  Dream come true. Can you believe we are standing in ‘Our House’?!"
I cried that day..
For the woman I was-
For the time wasted in suffering-
For Joy-
For the Future-
and in Gratitude.

So you think you're Psychic????

Over the last few years I have had this conversation so many times that I decided that it's time to blog about it...lol

There is a great fascination with  'the other side' in our current culture. Due to the fact that society and  reality is pretty screwed up at this time. People are being let down by the faith of their fathers and are in search of a greater meaning to it all.

Everyone wants to be 'Psychic'  (it is not a gift- we are all intuitive) know the future and predict the future for others. They want to prove that the 'Other Side' exists. They want to disprove that the 'Other side' exists. They  view it like a reality show- titillated by the paranormal and the people who chase the afterlife arrogantly and irresponsibly.

It is ignorant and irresponsible to play with something that we do not understand. I now realize why we are disrespected by the Indigenous peoples- we are irreverent in our ignorance and make fun of what we don' t understand. We lack respect.

I'm here to clear up a few myths....

For those of you that know me- I'm a straight shooter- I don't mince words and I don't necessarily tell you what you want to hear. This is not by my choice- it is the agreement that I made with  the Universal beings when I agreed to do this work.

I learned in the most difficult and life threatening way- there is a great responsibility by accepting the assignment in this lifetime.

This is not intended to scare you- but someone has to say something before people get hurt.

Our human mind cannot comprehend the way it really works- so it has to be 'simplified' for our limited human thinking. None of us will really know the full story till we get there- and trust me- we will all get there eventually.

When I awakened to a spiritual life- it was not  by choice. In fact- for anyone reading this who knows me for more than 20 years- you will agree wholeheartedly.
My life became a train wreck- I was arrogant- controlling- omnipotent- abrasive- rude- punishing-judgmental- unaccountable- irreverent- disrespectful- intrusive-ignorant-  and self serving.
I think that sums it up.

This is not a criticism of myself. It is a fact. I used my 'Psychic-ness' like a weapon- I CLEARLY saw what other people needed to be doing- and what was coming for them clairvoyantly, but my own path was beyond my 'vision'.  I didn't want to know the message for myself.
There was nothing wrong with ME.....(really? lol)

My awakening occurred as my life spiraled 'out of control'. Disrupting every illusion that I had created. The more I tried- the worse it got.

Meanwhile, I was being surrounded with people from every possible spiritual path- all with the same message of surrender- acceptance- faith- compassion and accountability....None of the qualities that I myself embraced for others..or myself.

This was GRACE (a blessing we receive in spite of not being deserving of one)...this was a loving message in spite of me from the Universe. It was a call to see that I was living a lie- and I was too arrogant to understand that- so I suffered,  as I clung to the illusion and it fell apart anyway...i awoke very reluctantly...lol

So once the illusion was gone- I had to look at where I was. Yuk. 

Then I started to see that my whole life- the spirits, guides and messengers were always talking to me- they had been allowing me to create every experience as  the greatest teaching...so I began to hear them clearly. I now WANTED to hear them clearly so I could begin in a different way....


So if you are still with me- this is where we get back to the 'Other side' and  YOUR Psychic ability...

I developed a trusted and loving  relationship with my guides- who thankfully ran interference during my ignorant learning period (which almost killed me- a story for another day). I came to understand that my awakening was not just for my journey- but I was to use this learning to teach others how to manage their own personal awakening. That many were being 'CALLED' to serve our damaged world.

But in order to teach- we have to first be the student.
As the societal illusion crumbles people will be lost and looking for answers through faith- through their connection to the Divine.

There are lots of things on the other side- not just fluffy Angels and your dear sweet Grammy.....
I wish that's all there was.
There are many dark things as well- things unenlightened- looking to keep us confused to keep our world in chaos and hate. Sucking power through our fear and hatred and addictions.
Dead people bent on hate and destruction-without the human body..Invisible to us.
Then there are  Demons- and a host of Earth spirits.
I have had to opened that door on behalf of clients, who were struggling with those things and had to do battle personally. Facing  those things requires preparation, absolute faith and no fear.

We cannot have the light without the dark.

Now- Let's see it from a spiritual perspective...

We're at a party and getting out the Ouija board- tarot cards- mirror- whatever...and decide we are going to 'connect with the other side ' because we think we are PSYCHIC....guess who is waiting to answer you're questions? Grammy? Hell no....

Our arrogance  in opening the window to the unknown  is 'asking' and what is waiting to answer you is not  the Angels- it is the THUG on the street of the 'other side' ready to take advantage of your ignorance and arrogance...

The Light allows us the experience-they allow us free will so we create our own teaching and punishment- because a great teaching is about to occur.....The same occurs
on  the paranormal shows where they are pissing off dead folks to capture paranormal activity. That is like watching someone bully another human being for entertainment. It makes me sick.

How bad do you want to know your future?
Looking for spiritual guidance and insight and training is a better way to approach it.

Let me tell you-you already have all the answers within. The challenge is that we as human beings don't like the answer.We don't  have to be psychic to know that our future is created through what we are doing RIGHT NOW. We will continue to get more of what we already have unless we make changes to our thinking.

My favorite question is ' Is this the man? The ONE??  Thances are if the last 5 have been jerks- and you haven't self examined-then chances are this one is a jerk too- same teaching, different package. Another test to see if you are going to say no, or demand better for yourself..
You don't need to be psychic to figure that out.

Now- if you want to attract  new and wonderful opportunities to your life- and you really want to  hear the message that the Universe is sending you- connect with your guides then use your intuitive ability to change you and this world... If you need help- let me know :)

Letting go and becoming......

Today I dropped my son at his first day of high school; not just high school but an all male high school lead by the monks of Benedictine. A Spiritual place, a society of men.
A foreign world for a woman and mother.
The world of men is a mystery, as it should be.
Allowing him to enter that world without my watchful eye, and allowing him enter the Lodge is a rite of passage and  the hardest  surrender yet.
Although he is my son- he is a man and I will never be able to understand ( as much as I like to think I do) or fill the place that defines him in that way.
So...today I will be the Bow that bends in the Archer's hand- and allow  my son- the arrow to be sent forth in the company of other Warriors...

Children- Kahlil Gibran And a woman who held a babe against her bosom said, 'Speak to us of Children.' And he said: Your children are not your children. They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself. They come through you but not from you, And though they are with you, yet they belong not to you. You may give them your love but not your thoughts. For they have their own thoughts. You may house their bodies but not their souls, For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams. You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you. For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday. You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth. The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far. Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness; For even as he loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable. Khalil Gibran

Coyote- The Trickster

I love storytelling and especially love the traditional stories of our First Peoples.
Some of my favorite stories are about our brother Coyote

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Coyote represents many things. He is the eternal trickster, always getting others to compromise themselves in order for him to get what he wants, or to do for him what he is perfectly capable of doing for himself.

When it all goes bad, as it inevitably does - Coyote never takes ownership- blaming and  shouting his victimization for all to hear!!!

Brother coyote also reminds us to not take things so seriously, that when we do we forger the humor in situations and in ourselves., He is a reminder of the childlike pranks that will crack up the stoniest of faces and situations. Use humor to remove fear and worry....

On the medicine wheel, summer is governed in some tribes by Coyote- the place of birth and innocence. Embrace this time to play, to create, to twirl and skip. Use humor to dispell the seriousness of the illusion we've created....
To balance reverence with irreverence is the teaching of this Wylie trickster!!!!

South Winds of Innocence

The South winds blow
from the Place where Innocence lives
Bringing the Awakening of the Child
that lives still in my heart.

The simplicity of childhood;
where all that was important
was in this moment.
Where imagination and play
were woven together like a beautiful tapestry.

South Wind of Innocence,
blow the dust of self importance,
worry and fear  from my mind
and allow me to remember
the childlike joy of being alive.

Marianne Goldweber