Dreaming the dream.......

Life is but a dream....
We spend our lives on the 'To Do' and there doesn't seem to be time for ‘Creating the dream’. We feel  like slaves to the life that  is thrust upon us.

The life you have is the one that you are allowing yourself to have.              

If that's so- we can create whatever experience we want.

It can be changed at any moment.
-When you decide you want more.
-When you become intolerant of suffering.
-When you get accountable to your own life.

One day- I had a Dream. In the dream, I envisioned A Village, a place of peace, community and teaching-
an oasis for a changing and lost world.

At the time, there was no foreseeable way that was going to happen;

 I had a 2 year old- my marriage was a mess- I'd lost a 20 year career and I had lost my identity.
I owned a small retail store that I had to depend on for my very existence.
I thought there is no freaking' way. This ‘Dream’ was really a vision and part of my Spiritual Awakening.

I bought a three ring binder- I filled it with ideas for the 'Dream'. I wrote powerful words on the cover with a silver marker;. Manifestation- Inspirations- Insights- Notions- Plans- Ideas- Visions- Dreams- and drew suns stars and moons all over it.

What would it look like? What would I do there? Who would come?

Ok, what would I need to get it up and running?
1. A location..(I had visited a wonderful B+B once- I fell in love with it.)
I used it as my  backdrop.

2. What were the blocks to getting it?
I made a list.. it started to look do-able!

With help from the Universe- things slowly began to change....I began to change..
I got divorced (not by my choosing at the time) I let go of the store that was a source of exhaustion and huge financial commitment. I spent the next year healing my wounded life, mourning, decompressing, sorting, purging, , praying  and dreaming. I was blessed to have the company of my friend and sister Jennifer during that amazing, wonderful, horrible time.

At the end of that year, I had a clearer understanding of the Dream. I had a clearer understanding of what I needed to create it. I got accountable, gained confidence, accepted myself unconditionally, evolved and planned. With every bag of garbage I purged and every relationship I evaluated,  I cleared the path of everything that was in the way of the Dream. My ways of thinking- worry- control and fear and replaced them with hope- accountability- faith and surrender.

During those years, my son and I visited our beloved  B+B over 30 times. He used to call it ‘Our House’;it was for sale and vacant. In  October 2009, I made the call and it was available and do-able. On the Full Moon- October 31, 2009 A Village became a reality.

The day we got the keys- I stood in the living room with my now 15 year old son-
He said "We did it Mom- can you believe it?...It's our  Dream come true. Can you believe we are standing in ‘Our House’?!"
I cried that day..
For the woman I was-
For the time wasted in suffering-
For Joy-
For the Future-
and in Gratitude.

So you think you're Psychic????

Over the last few years I have had this conversation so many times that I decided that it's time to blog about it...lol

There is a great fascination with  'the other side' in our current culture. Due to the fact that society and  reality is pretty screwed up at this time. People are being let down by the faith of their fathers and are in search of a greater meaning to it all.

Everyone wants to be 'Psychic'  (it is not a gift- we are all intuitive) know the future and predict the future for others. They want to prove that the 'Other Side' exists. They want to disprove that the 'Other side' exists. They  view it like a reality show- titillated by the paranormal and the people who chase the afterlife arrogantly and irresponsibly.

It is ignorant and irresponsible to play with something that we do not understand. I now realize why we are disrespected by the Indigenous peoples- we are irreverent in our ignorance and make fun of what we don' t understand. We lack respect.

I'm here to clear up a few myths....

For those of you that know me- I'm a straight shooter- I don't mince words and I don't necessarily tell you what you want to hear. This is not by my choice- it is the agreement that I made with  the Universal beings when I agreed to do this work.

I learned in the most difficult and life threatening way- there is a great responsibility by accepting the assignment in this lifetime.

This is not intended to scare you- but someone has to say something before people get hurt.

Our human mind cannot comprehend the way it really works- so it has to be 'simplified' for our limited human thinking. None of us will really know the full story till we get there- and trust me- we will all get there eventually.

When I awakened to a spiritual life- it was not  by choice. In fact- for anyone reading this who knows me for more than 20 years- you will agree wholeheartedly.
My life became a train wreck- I was arrogant- controlling- omnipotent- abrasive- rude- punishing-judgmental- unaccountable- irreverent- disrespectful- intrusive-ignorant-  and self serving.
I think that sums it up.

This is not a criticism of myself. It is a fact. I used my 'Psychic-ness' like a weapon- I CLEARLY saw what other people needed to be doing- and what was coming for them clairvoyantly, but my own path was beyond my 'vision'.  I didn't want to know the message for myself.
There was nothing wrong with ME.....(really? lol)

My awakening occurred as my life spiraled 'out of control'. Disrupting every illusion that I had created. The more I tried- the worse it got.

Meanwhile, I was being surrounded with people from every possible spiritual path- all with the same message of surrender- acceptance- faith- compassion and accountability....None of the qualities that I myself embraced for others..or myself.

This was GRACE (a blessing we receive in spite of not being deserving of one)...this was a loving message in spite of me from the Universe. It was a call to see that I was living a lie- and I was too arrogant to understand that- so I suffered,  as I clung to the illusion and it fell apart anyway...i awoke very reluctantly...lol

So once the illusion was gone- I had to look at where I was. Yuk. 

Then I started to see that my whole life- the spirits, guides and messengers were always talking to me- they had been allowing me to create every experience as  the greatest teaching...so I began to hear them clearly. I now WANTED to hear them clearly so I could begin in a different way....


So if you are still with me- this is where we get back to the 'Other side' and  YOUR Psychic ability...

I developed a trusted and loving  relationship with my guides- who thankfully ran interference during my ignorant learning period (which almost killed me- a story for another day). I came to understand that my awakening was not just for my journey- but I was to use this learning to teach others how to manage their own personal awakening. That many were being 'CALLED' to serve our damaged world.

But in order to teach- we have to first be the student.
As the societal illusion crumbles people will be lost and looking for answers through faith- through their connection to the Divine.

There are lots of things on the other side- not just fluffy Angels and your dear sweet Grammy.....
I wish that's all there was.
There are many dark things as well- things unenlightened- looking to keep us confused to keep our world in chaos and hate. Sucking power through our fear and hatred and addictions.
Dead people bent on hate and destruction-without the human body..Invisible to us.
Then there are  Demons- and a host of Earth spirits.
I have had to opened that door on behalf of clients, who were struggling with those things and had to do battle personally. Facing  those things requires preparation, absolute faith and no fear.

We cannot have the light without the dark.

Now- Let's see it from a spiritual perspective...

We're at a party and getting out the Ouija board- tarot cards- mirror- whatever...and decide we are going to 'connect with the other side ' because we think we are PSYCHIC....guess who is waiting to answer you're questions? Grammy? Hell no....

Our arrogance  in opening the window to the unknown  is 'asking' and what is waiting to answer you is not  the Angels- it is the THUG on the street of the 'other side' ready to take advantage of your ignorance and arrogance...

The Light allows us the experience-they allow us free will so we create our own teaching and punishment- because a great teaching is about to occur.....The same occurs
on  the paranormal shows where they are pissing off dead folks to capture paranormal activity. That is like watching someone bully another human being for entertainment. It makes me sick.

How bad do you want to know your future?
Looking for spiritual guidance and insight and training is a better way to approach it.

Let me tell you-you already have all the answers within. The challenge is that we as human beings don't like the answer.We don't  have to be psychic to know that our future is created through what we are doing RIGHT NOW. We will continue to get more of what we already have unless we make changes to our thinking.

My favorite question is ' Is this the man? The ONE??  Thances are if the last 5 have been jerks- and you haven't self examined-then chances are this one is a jerk too- same teaching, different package. Another test to see if you are going to say no, or demand better for yourself..
You don't need to be psychic to figure that out.

Now- if you want to attract  new and wonderful opportunities to your life- and you really want to  hear the message that the Universe is sending you- connect with your guides then use your intuitive ability to change you and this world... If you need help- let me know :)

Letting go and becoming......

Today I dropped my son at his first day of high school; not just high school but an all male high school lead by the monks of Benedictine. A Spiritual place, a society of men.
A foreign world for a woman and mother.
The world of men is a mystery, as it should be.
Allowing him to enter that world without my watchful eye, and allowing him enter the Lodge is a rite of passage and  the hardest  surrender yet.
Although he is my son- he is a man and I will never be able to understand ( as much as I like to think I do) or fill the place that defines him in that way.
So...today I will be the Bow that bends in the Archer's hand- and allow  my son- the arrow to be sent forth in the company of other Warriors...

Children- Kahlil Gibran And a woman who held a babe against her bosom said, 'Speak to us of Children.' And he said: Your children are not your children. They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself. They come through you but not from you, And though they are with you, yet they belong not to you. You may give them your love but not your thoughts. For they have their own thoughts. You may house their bodies but not their souls, For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams. You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you. For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday. You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth. The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far. Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness; For even as he loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable. Khalil Gibran