Friday, December 18, 2009

I've got that feeling.......the Christmas Feeling........

Today I was renewed by a classic- It's a Wonderful Life..

We have all  had moments when we feel that we have put off our dreams because of the demands of daily life....that no matter how hard we work it's never enough. We  have all had thoughts of how our existence is insignificant....

At one point in my journey- like George- it seemed  no matter how hard I tried- the Mr Potters of the world were out to sabotage my efforts- and  I reached a point of despair that changed my life forever... it was like the scene when George was in Martini's bar; George prayed for God to show him the way because he was out of options.....and God sent an angel...not to just save his life- but to help George redeem his faith in himself and renew his faith in the purpose he served to a damaged world....
In addition Clarence the angel reminding him that no matter how bad it seemed- it wasn't the material things that mattered- it is about the people who's lives we touch, who touch ours, and how truely blessed we are..

My favorite revelation is;   when we ask for Divine help and our prayers are answered- it doesn't always come in the package we expect.

My favorite part of the movie is when all the people George helped, came in his hour of need, anxious to  give to the man who gave them so much...That outpouring of love gets me every time....

It is indeed a Wonderful Life......

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Unconditional love..

There is no greater love that you can received than the love from a child.
I just want to say that I am the most blessed woman in the world.
I'm not sure what I have done to get such an amazing son-
but today  I just want to let him know how much he is appreciated and loved.
He  is what is right in this world.
 
My Son

Peaceful warrior
courageous and patient
wise and knowing
Thank you for allowing me to mother you on this journey.
Your love has healed me in ways you will never know.


Thank you for your support and encouragement when doubt clouds my way.
You have believed in me when many have not-
and for that I am grateful.

As you grow and mature I see a glimpse of the great man your will be.
It is a bittersweet vision...

It was not long ago that you would put your hand in mine
and look up at me with trusting, loving eyes eyes.

I look up at you now,
with the same love and admiration.

Thank you for all that you do
and all that you are.

You are a gift,
not only to me,
but to this world.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Changes.....

I guess the definition of insanity is doing things over and over expecting different results...
What I've come to realize is that we don't want to change.
Change means admitting we don't have the answers, that we are not in control- we really don't know where we're headed.But like the emperor who had no clothes, we are the only ones who are caught in the illusion. Others, see who we really are and the lie that we are telling them and ourselves. However, they don't want to be the ones who disrupt our 'illusion'..and be subject to our outburst of denial when we tell them they are wrong...

But..the true day of awakening is the one were change is forced.

The day when our pain, angst and fear overcomes us and we realize we've run out of options and we have no other choice than to look for another way...a better way..and in most cases it is the Divine that we turn to in that moment of surrender.

The only constant is change, and being resistant to it is the Achilles heal of the human being...
See the mighty oak- it has evolved to know to bend with the wind, staying rigid means certain death. It surrenders dead branches- letting things go- things that no longer serve the whole- or they will make it diseased.

So in this time of Winter- lets reflect on what illusion we've created- be brave and ask for a better way- change is wonderful.. I promise..



I still don't know what I was waiting for
And my time was running wild
A million dead-end streets
Every time I thought I'd got it made
It seemed the taste was not so sweet
So I turned myself to face me
But I've never caught a glimpse
Of how the others must see the faker
I'm much too fast to take that test

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strain)
Ch-ch-Changes
Don't want to be a richer man
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strain)
Ch-ch-Changes
Just gonna have to be a different man
Time may change me
But I can't trace time

I watch the ripples change their size
But never leave the stream
Of warm impermanence and
So the days float through my eyes
But still the days seem the same
And these children that you spit on
As they try to change their worlds
Are immune to your consultations
They're quite aware of what they're going through

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strain)
Ch-ch-Changes
Don't tell t hem to grow up and out of it
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strain)
Ch-ch-Changes
Where's your shame
You've left us up to our necks in it
Time may change me
But you can't trace time

Strange fascination, fascinating me
Changes are taking the pace I'm going through

Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strain)
Ch-ch-Changes
Oh, look out you rock 'n rollers
Ch-ch-ch-ch-Changes
(Turn and face the strain)
Ch-ch-Changes
Pretty soon you're gonna get a little older
Time may change me
But I can't trace time
I said that time may change me
But I can't trace time